So the first time I was flaring bad, I mean really bad (I have had lots of bad days or even weeks), was about
12 years ago, my initial diagnosis. At that time I was 28 years young and about
to get married. I had full support of my fiance and tho it did not change my symptoms, I didn't realize at the time how helpful that was.
Fast forward 12 years, I got divorced a few years back. No bad story, just a mutual decision that was better for us both.
I have very recently struggled with and chose to stop azathioprine. Was beginning to get small infections i believed were from a lowered immune system. As I was only taking 50mg, I thought ok why not try.
I'm now in my second bad flare. This time, with covid, and lockdowns, and living alone, I feel in this all alone. I don't feel like anyone understands or that I have anyone to really talk to. It also makes me feel undateable. I know that's dumb but that's where I'm at in this moment.
I'm real close to calling my dr to re start azathioprine. I just can't take the hopelessness that's coming with this this time.
Nothing I seem to eat or not eat or supplement is seemingly helpful and things are slowly progressing to be worse.
Honestly, I've built a pretty good little life for myself and besides being single, things a are really good.
But I'm scared like really scared and feel like this time I'm on this ride alone
Maybe this was more of an outlet than a question. I just don't know what to do next.
Post Edited (LeafsFan) : 2/6/2021 6:55:36 AM (GMT-7)