Hi...I can't relate exactly, but I can understand to the guilt in general and not being healthy where someone else has to support me.
You have to forgive yourself for having health problems, be thankful you are loved and able to have your health care paid by your parents.
You're working on feeling better, and once you get healthier your emotional state will improve.
Tell them you love them, thank them for loving you. Let it go, put it in your heart, and go on with your life the best you are able at this time.
Don't continue to punish yourself...would you not do the same for your child?
What you're feeling is normal....but try not to let it get in too deep so that you hinder your own well being. I have been there in the past for longer than I care to say...therapy defintely helped, but I also had many issues to deal with. I didn't have a great relationship with my parents, but they would have done as your parents are doing.
quincy
*Heather*Status:mini flare June 23* 6asacol daily+ Salofalk (tapered every 3rd night)
~diagnosed January 1989 UC (proctosigmoiditis)
~5ASA: Asacol + Salofalk enemas (increase for flares tapered to maintenance)
~Bentylol (dicyclomine) 20mg as needed
~vitamins/minerals
~Probiotic 2 (Natural Factors Protec) + 1 (Primadophilus Reuteri) at bedtime
~Natural Factors Multi Digestive Enzymes with supper
~Ranitidine,Pariet (reflux) Effexor XR 75mg; Pulmicort/Airomir (asthma)
~URSO for PSC (or PBC) 500mg X 2 daily (LFTs back to NORMAL!!)
My doc's logic.. "TREAT (FROM)BOTH ENDS" worth it !!!