The last 3 days have been real tough, I have lost blood and mucus, been on the kitchen floor curled up in a ball with the stupid tummy pains, but if that wasn't enough, my feet, knees, hands and wrists are throbbing like mad, I can hardly move my head because whenever I do I get shooting pains all round my neck.
To make matters worse, I am very snappy, I keep verbally picking at Mandy, she has taken this week off work so she can be home with me, but I just keep finding excuses to argue with her. Every day when I was in hospital not only was she working 12 hours a day but she was driving the 40 minute round trip to drive to visit me in hospital twice a day! Not one of my family including my Mum or Dad bothered to come and visit me, their family member who was dangerously close to being permanently paralysed!!! Mandy's Mum and Dad offered to come over immediately even though they had just been to stay with us prior to me going in hospital, I guess that really says it all, one other thing, I got a get well card of Mandy's Mum and Dad, maybe I'm such a bad son and this is my parents way of letting me know?
I actually broke down in tears yesterday, I am just so down about the pain, I know I'll get through this, but I'm just on a bit of a downer at the minute, I have never been real close to my family, I was a bad kid :-( and I never expected anything from my family, so why am I so down, whenever any one is ill in my family, I get back home as soon as I can, after calling interflora and sending flowers and a card, that's the right thing to do I know it is! I don't expect anything from my family because you know, my parents split when I was 2, I admit I was a bad kid, but if my son was ever told what I was told by a surgeon, I would walk a million miles to be there for him whatever he had done wrong in life, which I'm proud to say is very little.
I'm sorry to be typing this down, but I just had to get it off my chest.
Love to you all.