I already had 2 infusions & the 3rd one will be another 2 weeks time. But this morning, I notice blood in the stood; does this indicate that Remicade is a failure for me ??
I hate to declare this much to my chinese believe in superstition that I do not suffer clamp, pain nor anything else except for those extra toilet trips per day previously.(almost 2 yrs)
To me, UC is just a nuisance illness that irritate the hell out of people than life threatening, well I could be proven wrong though..
I am getting tired, exhausted, and at the same time broke cuz I don't earn USD to pay for the over-priced Remicade...( 1 USD = 3.5 MYR)
or Rather, should I consider myself lucky just to have UC whereas in the chemo room where I had the infusion , they are 4th stage cancer patients...
I am feeling DOWN as if I was hit by 10-ton truck...