I have found so much peace from finding acceptance for the things I cannot change. It's really time, then, after acceptance, to rationally and reasonably carve out the best existence for yourself.
I've found acceptance to be very freeing. Now I can live instead of fight against demons or diseases. Everyone has them. Just about everyone. Mine happen to be some issues with family, depression and UC. Big shakes. At least I don't have cancer or MS or any number of other chronic illnesses that are, at least with my variety, much worse.
Until my depression was under control, I can't even begin to tell you how that affected virtually my every waking (and lots of sleeping) moment. Until I forgave people who I felt wronged me (not saying they did, but . . .) and accepted them, accepted the love they had to offer me even if it wasn't exactly the way I wanted them to love me, I finally felt real love.
We all face challenges in our lives. In comparison to other challenges I've had, UC is a minor blip on the radar. For others, that's not the case, it's a much more serious condition. Everyone has to figure out how to deal with those challenges. For me, acceptance has allowed me to get past the anger and denial, has allowed me to bring whatever problem it is back to a more appropriate and manageable size in my life, has allowed me to realize it's one aspect of my life, it's not my entire life, doesn't define me. Acceptance definitely was the key for me. Fighting back or refusing to accept may be what works for someone else. We all have to find our way and do it in the way that works for each of us.
Sporadic proctitis since about 1985. Mother had J-pouch surgery 1983.
DX'd with clostridium difficile in 2000. Pred, two courses of Flagyl, then Vancomycin finally got rid of it. 2001 colonoscopy dx'd left-sided UC. . Treated with prednisone, Rowasa, Asacol. Asacol not working, switched to Imuran. Three small flares since in 2002, 2005, and 2007, brought under control with steroid and Rowasa enemas. Lap Chole performed October 26, 2007, after gall bladder attack in June, '07.
Daily meds: 100 mg Azathioprine and 225 mg Effexor XR (for chronic, longstanding depression), many vitamins and Primadophilus Reuteri