I am a 42 year old man.
I have gone through an immense amount of difficulty in the last 6 year..
I have seen hyperbolic levels of stress,
pain, suffering anguish,, cruelty - and mid levels trauma mostly
from complications in my peronsal life. I also own and manage 3 separate powerful businesses.
80+ hour weeks of work. Main problem
is that, I have seen close to 520 days of sleeplessness. I used to treat them like allnighters – but it
got out of hand in last 4 years. Seeing 85 plus days of sleeplenss per year. I didn’t see a doctor about it until 2 years
ago. By then damage had already mounted. I was perfectly healthy before all this, and
thought I could just take it. Now however,
you’ve read this - take it and exaggerate
it by a factor 300%. Now that’s
a better actuality.
My heart is incredibly week now. Once
an serious athlete, I’m afraid to exercise. I live with general knowledge that my heart is
in very poor condition. I’ve been to ER 2
x from fatigue , not sleeping and having an orgasm with my girlfriend. I had a vaso vagel reaction, face went white,
heart sped up. I was sure I was going to
have heart attack or more appropriately cardiac arrest. In hospital, I came down, and recovered – and
they said I was fine. No presence of a
heart attack. I live in reality, where I
have to be careful – about sex –if I’ve had a period of sleeplenssness or exaggerated
Some times after not sleeping, and going up a flight of
stairs I have to stop – b/c I hear my heart beat pounding in my ears. I also
sprinted to an event I was late for; full sprint – my heart was pounding in my
ears so hard – I was scared. Ever since
then I’ve never run like that again.
I’ve seen a cardiologist – and his echo and stress test show only minor
decrease in function in mitral, bicuspid and aortic valve and a percentage
decrease in left ventricle. He says he has
he same results in his test at 49 years of age.
My general doc says my heart is fine.
But they don’t understand the reality of what I’m dealing
with. What I cant convey to doctors and cardiologists;
is that the heart is basically machinery; it sees wear and tear; it’s a
muscle; and if you put it through exaggerated, hard core experiences, pain ,
suffering, deprivation, sleeplessness and agony worth 27 years of life in 5
years. After 35 earlier years of normal life. It will weeken – and approach a point of
failure. My heart is week. I know that. What do I do?
How do I heal it?
CEO’s, and president of business - live excessive lives in business - it’s a sacrifice. Irony is the lack of sleep, early meetings,
trouble with wives, – and lead them to
early graves. And the guys who are working 40 hour weeks and
don’t have that stress, ambition and tension live much longer.