I'm not sure that I would call myself brave.... because I feel like a frieght train has hit me... but I have to keep pushing myself by kicking my self in the rear sometimes or have a friend do it...
I'm sure I could sit here and tell you all that I feel like my world is crumbing around me and that I feel hopeless... because sometimes it feels that way!!!!
I do have my moments believe me
But I try my best to look at it differently... from what the doctors have told me so far it's been there since 2003... ok I now have to accept the fact that the other doctors failed me by not making the dx then. now it's been 2 years that Jack has been with me and I never knew about
it. over the past year my job was so stressful I can't believe it didn't blow then!!! but I'm no longer working thank goodness because I couldn't work right now if I had too!!!!
so I guess I can either fall into it and let myself go crazy or I can fight like Hell to be happy with what I have and where I'm at right now...
I have been so lucky to have found HW I have made so many new friends
and I know that I could not get through this nightmare without the support that I have received from each of you...
Just when you think your world is falling part you hear about
someone like your brother in law's battle and you think maybe you don't have it so bad... I grew up believing that the good lord only gives us what he knows we can handle... so I have to accept it and keep believing that I can handle this because I have to much in my life not too!!!!
I'm sorry for your loss, but I'm happy to hear that he was strong enough to fight it back for the years that he did. He handled it! and that's what we all have to do... through faith, family,friends, laughter, love and a lot of tears.... we can handle anything....
sorry I sound so mushy.... but I know I can come here to HW and share my feelings without being judged... even though I feel like I'm going crazy sometimes
thanks for hearing me out... and giving me the support that I really need at this time.
P.S the only reason I changed the subject was, this thread came up as a link under cavernous aneurysms!!! I didn't want it out there for the whole world to see. ( they have to come here to find out how crazy I am)
is there a way to remove it from being a link to my post ?????
Thanks again for everything!!!!