Posted 6/15/2015 5:50 AM (GMT -6)
Hello, am new here, and was looking to find like souls, not quite sure where there headed with several different types of medical issues like myself. First I have no disc material left in my cervicle spine between c5 and c6, suffering from nerve damage for almost 30 years, in 2009+ my left leg swelled to the point of ripping open and draining form massive DVTs, now its also in my right leg, I need a hip replacement, but due to extremely poor circulation in my lower legs, the replacement has a good chance of failure, thus they are reluctant to operate.my lack of mobility has really taken a toll on my over all health, I get winded walking to the mail box, can barely dress mtself, have had to deal with some really nasty ulcers on my feet, have a nasty case of psoriasis, and quite frankly am wore out from dealing with pain, totally frustrated and quite scared that if I dont get my hip replaced soon, I will have heart failure, anerysum, or worse.
I have so many things wrong with me, its almost like whats the point, but there is a point, I want to live, I want tyo be able to walk normally, without a cane, run, ride a bike, and more, but being on medicare, I get pushed back 2 or 3 months sometimes with appointments because of it, am treated completely different from wwhen I was working and carried Atna ins..
I havent worked since july 2013, and am not eligable for disability???
It is very difficult to stay positive with all of this, and i know how important it is to keep a positive attitude for healing. Something that has crushed my faith in our medical system, on my first visit to my primary, he was awesome, he spent atleast 40 mins with me listening, at the end of our discussion, he said to me " Lets get you healthy and strong like you should be" I left his office on top of the world, I have finally found my Doctor! One I could say or tell him anything about myself, my fears, all of it..
On my secound visit, he was distant, not even sure of who I was, what was wrong with me and showed very little intrest in really helping me? I was shattered!!
Our relationship at this point is distant, he spends very little time with me, and even seems frustrated even talking to me...Im lost...