Just thought I would let you all know that I decided to make an appt with my family doctor that I have known for 25yrs. I am going to go about
this whole heart thing and see what happens. I am utterly terrified of what they might tell me, but my gut says it's gonna be nothing. I think it's just gonna be benign PVC/PACs. Probably induced from to much stress. I don't know that is what it is but I am hoping. Everyone that I have talked to seems to think that is my problem.
I don't know about the whole stress thing being the cause, but I know it makes things worse. All I know is that I am terrified that they gonna tell me I am going to need open heart surgery or something horrible. I have also scheduled an appt with my Employee Assistance Network to look into getting something for my panic anxiety. I have a feeling that it has a lot to do with this whole problem. Maybe get on some Xanax or something I don't know.
Anyway I will update all when I see the doctor. I just hope that I can bring myself to go. I know that if they do a EKG or something my heart rate is going to be off the scale lol. I learned something new this morning. I noticed that if you start paying way to much attention to your pulse it starts to do all sorts of freaky things. I was checking my BPM this morning and I swear it started going so slow I thought my heart was just going to stop. Someone warned me once that if you start doing that the heart will start doing all sorts of weird things like beating to fast, stopping, skipping etc... So I am sure that is what it was.
Ok well I am rambling now, but I am hoping that this appt will end my week long ap attack that I have been having. I have other things stressing me too. My gf had pnuemonia a couple of weeks ago and she is quitting smoking so she is really tense all the time. Some girl at work apparently has developed a thing for me because I flirt to much or something and she is married so have to put an end to that. I am really far behind on bills and rent. So god knows I have a lot of stress on me at the moment.
Will update when I learn anything. Hope you all have a great night and I will let you know what happens with the doctor. Thanks again for all the support you all have given me over the last couple of weeks. I hope to god all this works out and there really is nothing to worry about. I mean I have a hard time believing that I could have developed a heart disease over the last yr. Less then 2 yrs ago my doc did a physical and told me that my bp was up a bit but nothing to worry about now. Said if it didn't get better in the next 5yrs then we should talk about bp meds and diet and exercise.