Doctors Appt

Just thought I would let you all know that I decided to make an appt with my family doctor that I have known for 25yrs.  I am going to go about this whole heart thing and see what happens. I am utterly terrified of what they might tell me, but my gut says it's gonna be nothing.  I think it's just gonna be benign PVC/PACs.  Probably induced from to much stress. I don't know that is what it is but I am hoping.  Everyone that I have talked to seems to think that is my problem.

I don't know about the whole stress thing being the cause, but I know it makes things worse. All I know is that I am terrified that they gonna tell me I am going to need open heart surgery or something horrible. I have also scheduled an appt with my Employee Assistance Network to look into getting something for my panic anxiety. I have a feeling that it has a lot to do with this whole problem. Maybe get on some Xanax or something I don't know.

Anyway I will update all when I see the doctor.  I just hope that I can bring myself to go. I know that if they do a EKG or something my heart rate is going to be off the scale lol. I learned something new this morning. I noticed that if you start paying way to much attention to your pulse it starts to do all sorts of freaky things. I was checking my BPM this morning and I swear it started going so slow I thought my heart was just going to stop.  Someone warned me once that if you start doing that the heart will start doing all sorts of weird things like beating to fast, stopping, skipping etc... So I am sure that is what it was.

Ok well I am rambling now, but I am hoping that this appt will end my week long ap attack that I have been having.  I have other things stressing me too.  My gf had pnuemonia a couple of weeks ago and she is quitting smoking so she is really tense all the time.  Some girl at work apparently has developed a thing for me because I flirt to much or something and she is married so have to put an end to that. I am really far behind on bills and rent. So god knows I have a lot of stress on me at the moment.

Will update when I learn anything.  Hope you all have a great night and I will let you know what happens with the doctor.  Thanks again for all the support you all have given me over the last couple of weeks.  I hope to god all this works out and there really is nothing to worry about.  I mean I have a hard time believing that I could have developed a heart disease over the last yr.  Less then 2 yrs ago my doc did a physical and told me that my bp was up a bit but nothing to worry about now.  Said if it didn't get better in the next 5yrs then we should talk about bp meds and diet and exercise.

Bandit, I'm really glad that you made this appt. It was hell getting through all the tests for me, but it really did help. I know all about the taking the pulse thing too.. I can feel it hit three hard beats sometimes which really sends my panic through the roof.. but ya know... I think only a robotic heart would hold a steady beat every single one. I also noticed that I could start taking my pulse and it would be steady and even and suddenly it would go faster, which is just my brain saying..hey, she's taking her pulse.. she's anxious.
I hope your appt. goes well for you and that you come out feeling better!!!
Sarah

 hi bandit, that old nasty heart disease creeps on us unexpected alright.  we will be waiting for your drs. report

 

Well it's the day before my appt and I am terrified I tell you. They have gotten better over the last few days. I haven't been worrying as much about them. I realized on Friday that I have gotten these things off and on for years. Well not like this, but I have had some sort of fluttery feeling in the throat before. I just never paid them any attention. So I am wondering if I just started worrying about them more and causing them to happen more. The other thing that I realized is that I can still do physical activity and nothing happens when I am doing that. It only happens when i am sitting, worrying, or relaxing at night. Also my heart rate doesn't seem to go crazy during these things. It's still a good steady heart rate. I checked my BPM yesterday three times. In the morning when I woke up it was 65, afternoon it was 78, and in the evening before bed I counted 86. So that all falls within the normal range for my age. In fact I was kinda surprised it was that low.

Anyway tomorrow is judgement day, and I am scared of what he is going to tell me. You know the sad part is that yesterday my heart rates were so normal that I started worrying that maybe it was to low, and what if my heart wasn't beating fast enough etc.. So then I started getting the thing more and more and more as the day went. I am nuts I tell you. Alright well I have to get ready for work and start my fun day woohooo.

I am wondering if anyone here can tell me what to expect from the appt tomorrow. Are they going to like take blood and for what, do a ekg, do a holter? I am really really becoming a nervous wreck wondering what all they gonna do and all the possible things that they might find wrong with me lol. I am a nut I know, but the more I think about it the more I start thinking of all the things I read.  Like being caused by Pulmonary Embolism, Cancer, and all sorts of other stuff that is just as scary.  So if anyone can tell me what to expect tomorrow it would greatly ease my mind.

 

Post Edited (bandit28804) : 3/21/2006 6:13:30 AM (GMT-7)