Its about midnight here and Im desperately trying to make sence of my life. Ive been suffering with funny heart senssations for about 4 years now, since the birth of my son. At first they put it down to PNI, but when that went the heart stuff stayed. Ive had numerous ECG's and a total of 5 days monitoring. They've said nothing unusual, but a few skips, when I mentioned PVC, they just said yes. Why couldnt they just call it that, insted of saying its normal. If its normal, why didnt it happen before my son. Anyway, my symptons are, every now and then (once every few months) I get an episode where my heart clicks into a rapid beat, at about 200bpm (theyve never caught it on a tracer, but a paramedic caught my pulse just after it finished at 187bpm) They've said this sounds like SVT.
Then, I often have skipped beats, sometimes my chest feels hollow and sometimes I get a fizzy sensation in my chest. I feel a very rapid beat below my heart, like a pulsating vein. I get that strong beat and tingling down your arms, sometimes after Ive eaten. I dread going to bed, as I think Im going to die. Its always worse when I lie down at night, but once asleep it doesnt wake me. If I get woken in the night, or if I startle wilst dropping off, my heart rate flies up. I went for a gym induction today and they wont let me near the equipment until my GP writes a note because my resting heartrate was 94! (I was a little nervous, now its 74ish) There is no pattern to the anxiety thing. I often feel nothing if Im streesed or whatever, but get them when Ive calmed down. I darent get happy-excited because they always happen then. Im sitting here now, and my heart feels blippy. In actual fact, when I feel depressed about it all, it happens less.
They've prescribed 40mg of some beta-blocker, but Ive never heard of it and Im just not happy. Ive seen a cardiologist once in 4 years and always get palmed off with the junior, who rushes off ever few mins, because he needs to check something. Not confidence building!
I honestly feel like Im going mad in this little coccoon. I feel isolated from my family and friends, because although I contantly think about it (and dying) I dont talk about it. Im sure they just think its anxiety and panic attacks, but it cant be can it. It happens, whether or not Im anxious.
Im just after some advice and support.
Thanks for taking the time to read my ramblings.