our friend aldo

 hi again aldo,  i think you are suffering alot of depression, who doesn't with a life threatening illness, but i want to share something that is a bit off the subject, but none the less it had an effect on me.. my hubby and i just came back from a trip to see his dad and mother. he is 82 nad she is 76.  she has been in a nursing home for 6 months unable to get around because she had a hip replacement. he is worn out from going back and forth everyday.  they were both doing good til about two years ago.  i guess what this trip taught me is  i do not want to get old   anyway.    who wants to live like that, not me. she is mentally alert and pstill likes to look good, a real go getter, then  bamm down for the count, now he is worrying about the cost and yada yada, it goes on and on  who needs that when your young,much less old. it really made me want to live more for today than ever before and pray that God takes me before i have to suffer. so live aldo, as much as you can,i miss your posts. hope this little letter is not upsetting or anything, just sharing my thoughts.

 HI glad to hear from you.  it was very scary to me at first when i was diagnosed late 2004, since then, especially in the last 6 months, i have come to beleive that it is okay to leave this earth, i hated to leave my husband, we have only been together for 8 years and i am the happiest i have ever been, so i finally decided to just say thank you jesus for everyday i wake up, it is the first thing i do when i open my eys,  i get to see another day, but i can tell you if i start to get sickly, i do not want to be here for that, i pray he will just take me in my sleep.  i do not feel depressed about it, i just do not spend every waking moment thinking about it. i have to admit though, if i start to have problems i will need your support as i am a big baby. sorry we did not hear from you last evening at the chat, maybe next time.  are you still having rough days physically or is it mostly emeotional stuff?

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