Newcomer here, and although I'm sure you're all very nice I can honestly say I REALLY wish I'd never felt the need to find this site in the first place. Here's the scoop....toward the end of January, I was driving back home from visiting a friend who lives about 3 hours away from me. I'd gotten up that day, went to school, then went to work. Got off work, drove out to visit her, we had a few beers and chicken wings, then I left to drive home. It was about midnight, and I was tired and wanted to make it home without wrecking, so I stopped and got a Starbucks double shot (in the little metal can), then another coffee, then a 32 oz. Pepsi. I'd had caffeine earlier in the day before I drove out there, also. On the way back home, right as I drove into the edge of town and was literally about 20 min. from home, I had what I'm being told was a "panic attack". Nothing like it had ever happened to me before, and although at the time I thought I was having a heart attack, I brushed it off as a caffeine overdose and let it go. Well then in the following 3 to 4 weeks, I had 2 more of those attacks. After the 3rd one, I quit going to school, quit my job, and started staying home. After the 3rd one happened, I ended up drinking that night because I was so stressed out about it. I ended up drinking way too much actually. The next day, I was hung over needless to say, but I still got myself up out of bed and went out with my mom and niece.
While we were out, I had a skipped beat. That scared me and added to the stress of the weird attacks I'd been having, so I further freaked out. All of that set in motion what's been going on for 7 months now. I've been to the ER, to family doctor, and to a cardiologist. Wore an event monitor to try to catch the "skips" and "shocks", and the doctor told me I had 'benign' PVC's and PAC's, and very rare ventricular and atrial couplets. He also told me I had an ABNORMAL ekg, showing nonspecific ST-T wave abnormalities. He then sat there telling me I had nothing to worry about, that I had a healthy heart, and that this was all anxiety (I've also had an echo and an echo stress test done). How can a 29-year-old woman NOT worry when a cardiologist is telling her she's got PV this and PA that, couplet this and that, and "abnormalities"? Since being told all of this crap, I researched it all myself, and found out that people who have abnormal ekg's or couplets are at an increased risk of sudden death. Does anyone here know whether or not that is actually true? I've found this stuff on websites, and it's very disturbing to me. I'd tried many different things to get these things to go away, and the problem is that I don't see myself having a normal life again unless they're either completely gone like they were before all of this started or unless I'm totally unafraid of them, or preferably both. How can a 29 year old woman be plagued with this crap? I know plenty of other people my age who have NONE of these problems. So I find it very difficult to believe that this is connected to my age. If I were 40 or 50 it would make more sense, but I'm not even 30. If my heart is supposedly normal like the doctors say, then why would it do what it's doing? People keep telling me that anxiety causes them in my case, and that they will go away if I can get my anxiety under control. But all of this started back in January when I wasn't feeling particularly anxious at all. I'm having a hard time right now trying to find hope of ever having a normal future again (work, school, normal functioning) because the thought creeps into my head of "what if I'm screwed with having these things for the rest of whatever life I've got left"? What's even worse is that I can't try these beta-blocker drugs like most people can, because again I guess I'm abnormal also in the fact that I've got very low blood pressure, usually only around 100/60 to 90/60. It is always very low, so the doctor doesn't even want to try that drug with me at this point. I don't understand it. I totally cut out caffeine (even to the extent that I don't eat chocolate), alcohol, have never been a smoker, don't do drugs (I did the typical experimenting earlier in my 20's like most people do but have not done anything like that in years), don't eat horribly artery-clogging food and have even tried to start watching what I eat, and am very small with a high metabolislm. I've been checked for everything else too - diabetes, thyroid, the whole works. Unless something has changed in the past 7 months, I don't have any of that stuff.
I've fallen into a severe depression because of all of this stuff starting, I don't feel like a normal 20-something person like I should feel. I haven't done anything with friends in so long that I can't remember the last time I went out for fun. My room has turned into a place I just throw things down in and don't ever come into it anymore, in fact I don't even sleep in it (sleep in the guest room instead). I'm so afraid of those stupid PVC's and PAC's that I even have nightmares about them. I don't really care whether they're benign or not, they scare the crap out of me everytime they happen. And because I was told I have an abnormal ekg, it makes me worry about them even more. This has taken over my life so much that sometimes I don't even go to shower or get dressed, I just lay to my right side in a rocking chair and watch TV, I guess because I don't see the point of trying to do anything when I'm so nervous about these things and when the next time will be that I get one. My personality has completely changed since all of this started, it's completely wrecked my life, and have even considered hypnotherapy to try to get relief somehow. Has ANYONE here found ANYTHING that truly HELPS slow down or stop their PVCs/PACs aside from medications? If anyone knows anything that I don't, please share because I'm at my wit's end. This is tearing apart both me AND my family, to the point where my mom has actually started getting these stupid things because she's so stressed about me. HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can see and understand your fustration with all of this but please in the future when posting do pay attention to the forum rules and regulations regarding language/slang words which I have edited from your post. Thank you ~ Elisha
Post Edited By Moderator (els) : 8/31/2006 8:48:58 AM (GMT-6)