They're Baaaack.....

Well... My wonderful thuds were gone for awhile after my gallbladder surgery and was I glad because I did not bounce back well after that procedure well. In fact I am still in pain and discomfort everyday and my bowels now seen to be displeased but the premature heartbeats for the most part were quiet. For those of you who suffer with these, you know what a wonderful thing that is even if you are in pain somewhere else!! However they are now BAAAACK!..Hip, Hip Hurray (NOT!)...and not just a couple a day....Oh NO....3-4 a minute...then a couple minutes rest...back to 3-4 a minute. I am just thrilled!....It is probably from stress. My father-in-law is in the hospital AGAIN..VERY SICK...REFUSING TREATMENT...so the hospital is making arrangements to send him home with hospice to die...and my mother-in-law is a very difficult person to try to get along with even in the best of situations. I was on the phone with her a couple of times this morning in very unpleasant conversations...UGGGGH! She will call my house looking for my husband (her son) who is out-of-town working and unable to answer his mobile which she knows. She wants me to put her in touch with him right away as soon as he is in but does not want to tell me what is going on at the hospital! She acts like I am an outsider and should not be given ANY information. Then she makes comments about how I haven't brought their granddaughter over to see him in the last few weeks while he was doing good and now he is in the hospital critical and going to die.  UGGGGH! The last three weeks I have been trying to recover from surgery and NOT doing well myself! Plus my daughter is VERY BUSY after school with activities and my husband is mostly gone due to work. So I HAVE to handle the schedule no matter how bad I feel! It has been taking all the energy I have to get dinner and get her to her activities and back home!...Like I knew that this was going to happen!...They aren't even very nice to me when I do go over!...I think my husband should take her over when he is home...He knows I hate to go over to his parents and they only want to see him and our daughter anyway!...I can't believe that he doesn't realize that! UGGGH! In the meantime, the thuds just keep on marching. If they don't slow down, I think I'll just go to the ER. So they can repeat  the "they are benign" mantra.....

Dreamgirl, Thank you! I don't know about the gallbladder thing. It didn't function and I quess it needed to come out but I was hanging alot of hopes on that surgey. Those hopes have not panned out and I quess I'm disappointed. I am very weary right now.

I just got back from the hospital to see my father-in-law. What a horrible mess he is in. He is dieing. My mother-in-law apolegized for saying anything to hurt me and I felt bad. She said that she has never had a daughter and doesn't know what to do with one. She has always been the only female and quite frankly the two men in her life (her husband and her son) did as she wished most of the time. I'm a bit more stubborn. OK-maybe a lot more stubborn and I frustrate her.

Everything is just so sad right now. I took my daughter in to see him but he is not always lucid and is sometimes just down right scary-screaming and cussing. My mother-in-law is crying saying she just doesn't want to lose him.

The two cardiologists who have seen him the last two days as told her that he is doing the right thing. Evidently he is not going to get better. His blood pressure is low and they had to take him off the morphine which did not seem to be doing much good anyway. His kidneys and liver are not functioning properly. He is about to become dialysis dependent if he lives much longer and he is losing his eye sight as well as a foot to diabetes complications. ???? Things are really bad.

Dreamgirl, I am not at all offended, quite the contrary. I appreciate your kindness and support. Thank you so much. I am just sad.

I wish we had had a better relationship before, my inlaws and I. I wish I had visited more with my daughter. I wish I had been quicker to forgive the stinging barbs I endured from them so often or maybe I was too sensitive! ???? My father-in-law passed away tonight. I quess that the cardiologist had told him before we got there that he could disable his defibrillator. He decided that he wanted that and they did it this evening. He died almost immediately. It is all just sad.