I understand feeling depressed. I'm only 24 and this has changed my life enormously. Before this I took cardio kickboxing and hip hop dance classes, played on a softball team, traveled all over the country...now I'm afraid to do any of those things. I was planning on going somewhere exotic next year after I take the bar exam (I'm a law student), but now all I can think about is what kind of hospitals they might have. I also had a 5-a-day Coca-Cola habit before this and I went cold turkey in the hospital 3 weeks ago. I'm 24, I'm supposed to be out partying with my friends and enjoying being young. Instead, I'm having ginger ale instead of wine or martinis. However, for me it was worth it to give up all of these things in order to get rid of the episodes. I live alone and the episodes scare me to death. All I want to do is lay on the couch and pray one doesn't happen. A month ago I was the most outgoing, active person you've ever met.
For these reasons, I'm having a catheter ablation done Dec. 1st. My doctor said I could come off the Toprol after that, and I can return to the caffeine (which I desperately need to get through law school!), alcohol, chocolate, etc. Makes the procedure totally worth it!
My situation may be different from many of you, as I haven't lived with this long. I had a big episode on Oct. 22nd that put me in the hospital for three days. After that, I had four more substantial episodes that week as I adjusted to the Toprol. Since that week, I haven't had anything. My EP said that most people live with it for a couple of years before they have the procedure, but that because I was so young he was willing to do it now if I wanted. When he told me this I had only had the one big episode and I opted to just go on the Toprol. After having four more later that week, I signed up for the procedure. I can't wait to have it and hopefully put this all behind me!