hi all, only been here a short while. I am looking for hope. I am 39 year old who has had a heart attack, a rotor rooter, stent, triple bypass, stent, stent in a stent. I guess I am looking for someone in my age group that has a great outlook on life. Seems like something has always been wrong with me. At the age of 19 I began to have panic attacks which lead to a panic disorder. Then depression and some bi polar disorder and you have my life. I still have chest pain mostly before and after my imdur wears off. I kind of at wits ends right now. Feel like there is no where else to turn. Thanks for taking the time to read.
Hi Dave, We are most happy to have you here and I hope you do find this site supportive for you. I will tell you a little about myself here, I am 33 yrs old and have had depression, panic/anxiety and PTSD since my early teens. This is due to childhood abuse which I wont go into here as I don’t feel it is appropriate. I got married at 26 to a guy whom I had been with since I was 19. I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis in 2001, 2 yrs after we were married and everything feel apart for me and basically for us. My husband was not supportive of my illness and the change it caused in our marriage so I moved out and back home with my mom which resulted in my divorce. In September of 05 I became sick again with bradycardia (low heart rate) and received a pacemaker, and also orthostatic hypotension. Since then, I have been diagnosed with an autonomic disorder called Multiple System Atrophy or MSA for short.
I have had a really difficult time for a lot of months after this. There were terrible thoughts running through my mind and all I could concentrate on was what did I do so wrong to deserve this to happen to me. I don’t know what the turning point was for me but I worked through it with counseling and taking my medication everyday. I do take an antidepressant and an antianxiety medication when I need it. I can say that I had to stop looking at what tomorrow was going to bring and worrying about that...wondering if I was going to wake up if I went to sleep at night. All you can do is concentrate on today and make it the best day you can.