help.......please respond

I suffer from cardiomyopthy (spelling) I am an alcohohic, bi-polar with other addictions. My local hospital denied me treatment for a de-tox. My life is on a thread, at the moment. I tried all the help agencies and no one can assist. My depression is so great that I am sick of my life, I want to die and I think I need is a hospital bed for a few days. Right now, my computer is my only recourse. I have had bi-vads implanted last june and a month later, removed. my ejection fraction was 10% and improved to 50%.......I owe that to god, but my addictions......they are going to kill me soon. I also have a de-fib/pacemaker and I am 47 years old. The medical field has put me on hold for many days. (I am crying) All I ask is some advice, a big kick in the ass, and five thousand pounds of hope. My heart is so far, fine, and that is the biggest part. I want to live.

Hi I'd like to help,  I am sorry that your going through this .  It seems that you have insight into what the problems are for you and indeed you do have many things/factors working against you.  I'm not all too sure if your asking for advice here on how to move up the process of getting into the hospital a little sooner or what...but, I do know if you go to your local ER and tell them that your having thoughts of self-harm (dont lie to them if your not) and feel like you want to give up on life in general then they should be able to arrange for some inpatient treatment for you at that time.  Dont give up hope cause when life seems its darkest it is always hard to see your way out of that fog...but there is help and you can get better.  Just hang on and know we are always here for you.

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Elisha
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Moderator: Heart & Cardiovascular Disease
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