What are the risk of stopping HBP medicine? Is it true Im gonna die

I cannot remember anymore but they said that it is still so high and need to control to normal readings. As of now I am having chest discomfort since i stop that indapamide drugs. It seems I am loosing my breath when I move a lot and my hbp is so high and my pulse is high too up to 100 and this do not happen before. They want to take a blood test again and see if I got thyroid. They want me to go to clinic tomorrowand have blood test and potassium test.

I cannot remmber Mr. Selmer because its more than two years since they try to control my HBP and until now they cannot control it.
Year 2005 april when this heart doctor gave me CArDI_ZEM that plut me on the ER and since then his been giivng me a third medicine that is not siutable for me. Ate least all other medicine I stop sooner before it put me on the ER.
But just September he gave me indapamide that puts me in the ER again.
I only see this real heart doctor of mine every one year but between a year he wants me to see their Nurse practitioner who is much better than him.
All my numbers are in papers and as I said it is all so high like 171 - 99 -83. They try to have it lower than 130 - 85 - 75 but they are not having any luck.
I cannot find any heart doctor who will steer me up on the best direction because I have no job and depending only with my medical coupon which has some boundery that means not all docotr accept medical coupon.
I really want to change a heart doctor but no luck finding some very near where I live as I do not drive.

My mind is so scattered because I am already have depression problem with my medicine.

Thank you for your nice reply.
madame x

Dear Madam X,

I think perhaps you need to establish yourself with an Internal Medicine physician who is very capable of handling your hypertension.  I am not sure that your meds would have caused the heart attacks if they truly were Myocardial infarctions as I do not have all the details.  They may have given you chest pain.

BP readings consistently at 140/90 mm Hg are considered to be hypertension.  Some data indicate that 115/75 mm Hg should be the gold standard.

I am not sure where you live so it is hard for me to advise you on physicians. In the USA most cardiologist would see you more often than yearly if you have severe cardiac problems.

I wish you the best in finding someone to provide you with the right medical care for your conditions.

Take care and gentle hugs to you

Kitt