i was really upset with myself yesterday when i took that pill, and still am a little bit.
i really, really knew better than doing that, but all 6 of the doctors that i have gone to about these recent neck/throat and gastro problems said that i really need to be on some type of acid reducer pill again.
they scared me into trying that pill.
so yesterday i thought maybe i'm being rebellious toward them, surely they all can't be wrong, and i was scared that maybe it's the only solution.
but then the answer came when my whole stomach, diaphragm and chest filled up, my head and neck felt hard pressure, and i thought i was going to pass out.
i've never had that reaction so bad before, Zantac 75 - the lower dose of it that i'd tried years ago, only cause very slight bloating and numbness.
but this was worse than i ever dreamed it could be.
there was no way to get relief, and i didn't know what was happening in there, what had happened. it has not settled down completely yet.
but i'm trying to stay calm, and thinking generally out side of this illness.
i have a home, and i am loved here, and there are things to be thankful for even if it doesn't settle down, if this is chronic.
i am trying to be thankful, as somebody out there just lost their husband, somebody out there has a son or daughter in war. i do not have these things, which are much greater stress.
i'm just here with an ailment. i'm thankful i don't have to work, i can stay home with this ailment and rest.
so i pray for those who have these symptoms and have the stress of having to work with them.
my body isn't stressed further by that, and, my heart and mind is not in pain and trauma, like plenty of other people's are. i am located in a house of love, with good neighbors and friends. plenty of people don't have these things.
all i'm saying is please, listen to your body, know your body and it's mechanics, and it's reactions. take care of it, rest and sleep in ways that will not cause further harm. drinks lots of water if you know your mechanics are not altered in some way where drinking it would cause stress, and stay calm, and don't take more pills for quick fixes, or if you know good and well they can bring you into further damage than just good habits of rest and good, healthy diet discipline can bring.
just needed to write it out.