Good Morning to All,
Welcome to HealingWell and the GERD and Heartburn forum. We are very glad to have you with us.
I completely agree with the members who have encouraged you to see your own GI asap. Of course your firghten by the sx and you have read to much into the sx withouy getting your physician's opinion.
Cancer is a scary word. Try not to assume the worse and if it should be you will deal with it.
To me it appears you may be experiencing anticipatory anxiety.
Common Anticipatory Anxiety Reactions
Feelings: anxious, fearful, angry, confused, hopeless, losing control, numb, sad, moody, irritable, guilty.
Behaviors: withdrawal from others or activities, disrupted routines, startle reactions, easily crying
Cognitions: preoccupation with possibility of trauma, concentration difficulties, self-doubt, worry, indecisiveness, memory difficulties
Physical complaints: muscle tension, headaches, gastric distress, sleep and appetite changes, fatigue
Talking usually helps. Share your feelings with friends, family, on here are all good ways to work through the anxiety.
Relaxation techniques: Try deep breathing, muscle relaxation, visualization (imagining peaceful scenes), and/or listening to soothing music.
Realistic self-talk: While we can't always control what happens to us, we can always control what we say to ourselves. It's important to keep things in perspective. Talk to yourself in reasonable ways. Ask yourself "how likely is my fear?" Remind yourself that you have coped before during other challenging times. Don't just dwell on the negative but consciously look for things you can appreciate every day.
Make an effort to stay focused on what's happening now. What do you see, hear, and smell? How do you feel? Truly be 'present' in the moment! That will help you keep the anxiety down.
When reading through the threads remember that each person's disease process will be unique to them. Use good judgement. NEVER rely on information or opinions exchanged via the forums or chat rooms to replace necessary, personal consultation(s) with qualified health or medical professionals to meet your individual health or medical needs. Remember that what's right or has worked for one person may not be what's right for you.
I also agree that sometimes we get so fixated on what others are saying we get confused............that may be the point where you stop reading everything and just take a break.
Hope your Holiday is going well. Give thanks for all the good in the world today.