I think the panic and nervousness is a result of a couple of things. First, surgeons don't really prepare us for what we will experience. (BTW, my SURGEON was the one who told me to expect peak swelling around Day 14, then things would begin to resolve.) It has been validated by many, many post-Nissen members here as well--including myself!
Also, eating is such a basic human need, that there is probably some self-preservation anxiety involved.
What you're experiencing is normal. You are at the very beginning of your healing journey. I'm not sure what your surgeon told you the recovery would be like, but what you're experiencing is extremely typical.
Take a breath. You're going to have to get past these tough early days. The first week or two are the hardest. You're going to find that your swallowing is definitely going to get worse before it gets better. Your wrap is swollen and that swelling will increase during the first two weeks.. This, too, will pass. Once the swelling has subsided, things will begin to improve.
It takes a full six months for most of the healing. You're at 10 days. We've all been where you are, and know how hard it is. The more you panic and worry and fight it, the harder your recovery will be. Just screw up your courage, and make a committment to let your recovery find its way--you will recover. Surrender to it, and just go with the flow. When things are hard, take it a day at a time, and keep positive thoughts in your mind.
As Tony said, remember the health problems you had that led you to the surgery. You're now on the other side...your healing will proceed and you will reap the benefits, once your body has had time to recovery.
Your outside incisions are deceiving. It looks as if you haven't had much done, and gives you the feeling that your recovery should be easy. Your outsides will recovery quickly, but inside, an "egg beater" has pulled and wrapped and moved your organs around, and your upper GI tract has been significantly revised. It will take a long time for your body to heal and adjust.
If you spend your recovery panicked, and struggling against the reality of life during post-Nissen recovery, you'll have one very long and very unhappy recovery. If you can turn your mind around and start thinking positive thoughts about the very good things this surgery will do for you once you've healed, it will make a big difference.
As far as the lump in your throat that hasn't resolved, it didn't take ten days for it to get that way, and it won't go away in ten days. I had to wait two and a half months to see improvement in my lungs post-Nissen. Fragile esophageal (and lung) tissue takes time to heal. As Tony said, healing takes time.
Hang in there, Nancy.
Post Edited (dencha) : 12/19/2011 8:54:42 AM (GMT-7)