I am sorry you are stuck on this merry-go-round of "what if?" thinking and looking for all the possible info you can on the chances and outcomes of being dx with esophageal cancer.
When you find yourself wondering, "What if..." Stop! Take a deep breath; breathe in through the nose, hold the air in your lungs for a count of four, then slowly let the air out through the mouth. While you are doing this, consider the possibility that you are being unrealistic and irrational. Focus on positive or neutral outcomes.
Take a break from googling. Don't saturate yourself with stressful information.
You will be OK. You have my support and I wish you a Happy New Year.
~~Kitt~~Moderator: Anxiety, Osteoarthritis,
GERD/Heartburn and Heart/Cardiovascular Disease. www.healingwell.com"only as high as I reach can I grow, only as far as I seek can I go, only as deep as I look can I see, only as much as I dream can I be"