Welcome to HealingWell. I hope we can help you here.
I understand that you have anxiety, but the attitude you're going into this surgery with is a little worrisome to me. You are saying already that you're very impatient. This is a surgery which requires patience, and a lot of it. Some bounce back quickly, but some take longer than others. You will also probably be on liquids right away, so you should be aware that you very well may be hungry. The other factor is that you will new to chew your food until the cows come home to make sure your stomach doesn't have to work too hard and that things don't get stuck at the wrap site. This also requires patience for those for those of us (myself included) who take big bites, lightly mash it, and then swallow a big gulp of food. Maybe start practicing that now? I've found that it's actually very satisfying, and also helped me lose weight because it takes longer to eat (due to the whole it-takes-your-stomach-20-minutes-to-realize-it's-full thing).
I think that you should start to learn some coping techniques, like Yoga or chanting (just a couple of suggestions, there are tons more out there). Just like your hysterectomy, this is major surgery which will not be cured overnight. The first thing I can tell you is that the swelling will peak at day 14, so don't be tempted to think it has failed right away. You will need patience, and you know yourself best on how to cope with it. If not, there are tons of Internet articles out there to help you.
Secondly, if you have a low pain tolerance, speak to your doctor about
longer-term pain management. For instance, we had a member who was struggling because the doctor told her she "should" only be taking her pain meds for something like 10 days (I can't remember exactly). However, once reassured by members here that she should take pain medication if she really needed them, she resumed taking an OTC analgesic and had a lot of relief from it. Of course consult with your surgeon if you're unsure about
Thirdly, if you're having second thoughts, re-read your sentences above:
"I just dont want to be a slave to my nexium anymore and I have barrets esophagus already. I've gone to twice a day in my meds and have had a serious reflux incident reducing me to tears it hurt so bad. I wake up at night with acid too. My best friend had this done many years ago and is fine. I have always been jealous because she no longer needs meds and can eat in "peace"."
All of those reasons are very valid ones. Try to focus on those instead of second-guessing you and your surgeon's decision. I know that's easier said than done, but you've obviously been suffering for quite some time. Your choices are to continue, or to have the surgery. It doesn't seem like you want to continue! :)
One of our extremely wise and wrapped members, Dencha, always says to "surrender to your recovery". I think it's a lovely plan. If you listen to your body and surrender to what it wants and needs, it's a lot easier to recover because the expectations can fall by the wayside and you can recover more gracefully :)
I wish you very well on your surgery next Thursday! Please keep us updated on how everything goes! Please feel free to peruse through our posts, and to ask anything that you're wondering about
. Also, don't be shy about
asking your surgeon questions!
Post Edited (aeshleyrose) : 2/3/2012 3:41:33 AM (GMT-7)