I am so sorry to hear about your Father's death and I understand exactly how you feel. I also watched my Father suffer through the dreaded cancer ( pancreatic cancer ) and he died in my arms in the hallway of the radiology department waiting for a scan. Take comfort in knowing you were there for your Father and he was not alone.
I think you have a right to feel afraid and I am glad you are advocating for yourself by asking for the scan. My sister died of ovarian cancer in 2009 after a 10 month battle and like you I was with her throughout the whole time. The first thing I did upon a visit to my own PCP after her death was to ask for the CA-125 blood test to screen for ovarian cancer and I have one done every years.
I also ate whatever during this 10 month period and besides my PPI I was eating Rolaids by the bottle full.
I will say a prayer that the CT scan is normal and when you see your GI he will have some great input for you.
Again, my deepest sympathy to you.
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