Sorry to hear you're still struggling. It's too bad you're not getting relief from the Ranitidine. I can't remember why you're not considered a good candidate for a Nissen. Can you refresh my memory?
You are so right that some of our friends here move on, which is a good thing, as you've said. Most of the people who helped me through my surgery three years ago are off living their lives. I decided to stick around and help others here the way I was helped.
I very much hope that one day you're feeling so well that you can fly the forum coop. Still, I also hope that even then, you decide to stick around and help other members the way you have helped them over these past months!
I had extremely sick lungs for over 4 years before my surgery, and my GI doc did not think I was a good candidate for surgey. Still, I persisted, and eventually my GI doc gave in and sent me to a surgeon. Hang in there...it can happen.
Kitt has offered some great advice. Try to find a way to follow it, as hard as it might be right now.
Very best wishes,
Words of wisdom by Eckhart Tolle:
"Whatever you fight, you strengthen, and what you resist, persists.”
“Worry pretends to be necessary but serves no useful purpose”
“Accept - then act. Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it.”