I am confident that when you visit your surgeon you will find that all is well and that your wrap is still perfectly formed and intact. You are at about 21 days post op, and are still at the swelling and pain stage of recovery. My surgeon told me that the esophagus is a "dumb organ" and it interprets all pain as reflux.
At 20 days you are at the very beginning of your healing, and aren't the least bit even CLOSE to being healed. In fact, you are still in the surgical pain and swelling stage of healing. It takes a full 6 months for most of the healing. Think about it! Six months! Look at a calendar. Mark when it's six months, and just see how long you have to go before you even begin to have a glimpse of how this surgery is helping.
It takes a full year (and in my case into the second year) for your body to fully adjust to the changes and for everything to get back to normal. For you to assume you're not in the 90% success cohort right now is premature, to say the least.
Take a breath. Know that you can't control how this healing progresses. No matter how hard you will it to be so, you can't make your body heal and adjust any sooner that it will. Healing takes time, and you really have no choice but wait for it to happen.
You can help it along by listening to you body and adjusting your eating habits to follow its lead. This recovery has a lot of ups and downs. You feel better, eat more aggressively, you feel worse and have to take it easy for a while. Baby that poor stomach and esophagus. It's likely that you're getting food/drink/medication held back at the wrap site as it's certainly still swollen. That creates pain in addition to the surgical pain that remains. As I said, the esophagus/brain interprets all pain as reflux.
Surrender to the path your recovery takes. Stop worrying that the surgery isn't working. It will drive you crazy. Your healing is as it is. Keep your thoughts positive. Know that healing is happening, and each day is a day closer to full recovery. If you struggle against what is, instead of accepting it, your recovery will be a terrible and frustrating experience.
If, instead, you give your body the time to heal and can trust that in time this will all resolve, your recovery will be much more pleasant. Go with the flow. It's not fun to feel pain, but it's not forever. You are just 21 days or so into your healing. Give your body time! You have had major surgery and your upper GI tract has been through a significant revision. Your hernia has been repaired (and that takes at least 6 weeks in itself), and your stomach has been stretched and wrapped and stitched. Give your body a break! It's trying to heal. It will heal. Trust.
I know the surgery and recovery is hard. I don't think there is a single person who hasn't worried that their surgery has been a failure. It's normal. But you have control of your thoughts and attitudes. You can do this!
Hang in there!
Nissen Fundoplication 2/09
Allergy/Asthma"Whatever you fight, you strengthen, and what you resist, persists.”
“Worry pretends to be necessary but serves no useful purpose”
“Accept - then act. Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it.”