I am so sorry for your loss......it is so hard and of course one never knows what to say.
Of course your mental state has everything to do with it. Don't worry about the kids, you will do fine. you are probably anxious because you are alone. I know first hand about losing people you love and it is such a hard time.
Yes, when I was prepping for the test, my stomach did have less pain, just hunger pangs.
I had a chicken rice bowl last night which had seasonings, beans and tasted good, but I am paying for it today. talk about mental affecting our gastritis, this waiting has done a number on me!.........After seeing my daughter on Moms day, I made up my mind that I need to get back to orange county. I am missing too much!.......I shared with Sam yesterday, he didn't seem surprised. another move will be expensive and stressful, but my chances of finding work again are there, not here. I need to work and feel useful........I know that has been weighing on me too.
I feel better just knowing it is in the plan now. ;) I have 7 months to prepare for it.
I will be able to return to my old Doc of 30 years also, which makes me happy.
Hang in there my friend, my thoughts are with you and your family. HUGS!