So a story I'm sure most of you are familiar with, I was having sternum pain and stomach pain, dizziness and feeling short of breath. I go to my doc and he thinks it's either GERD or a Hiatal hernia and now I'm struggling with this more than anything I have have before. I've got a whole host of health problems, depression, anxiety, type 2 diabetes and now this, all caused by my lifelong obesity.
I want to change my ways and start eating healthy, but nutrition when you have all these different things wrong with you is so bloody complicated. It's really frustrating and with my depression and anxiety it's really difficult to keep fighting. The hardest part as far as nutrition goes is I seem to be having trouble with milk products now despite loving them all my life, until this happened I didn't even know you could become lactose intolerant later in life I thought it was just something you were born with. I'd be happy to eat salads but I can't figure out a good dressing that won't kill my stomach. They're either so acidic that they aggravate my GERD or they're milk based.
When I have a really rough day like I did today it hits my mental health hard, I'm in such despair that I just wish it would all end. I'm a huge wuss when it comes to pain so I know there are others out there suffering more than me but the hardest part is I feel like I'm going to be trapped in my apartment forever. I've had to cancel so many things because of this health issue already I'm starting to feel trapped. I get so down because there are so many things I want to do with my life, being obese all my life I've known my clock was ticking, but I'm scared I may have run out of time.
Another thing is I'm not %100 sure what's wrong with me. My stool has been black lately and when I look that up online it scares the Hell out of me because it talks about it possibly being internal bleeding, I have a lot of the symptoms of it. I had a doctor's appointment today but I had to cancel because I just felt so horrible, and I can't get in to see him again until the 18th. I'm hoping I'm going to feel better soon so I can go to a clinic and get an xray or a barium test or whatever so at least I know with certainty what's wrong with me.
Any advice anyone can offer to me would be greatly appreciated. Apologies for the rambling, I guess I just needed to get it out.