I'm right there with you big guy!
I still fight the good fight daily and won't give up, however I've kind of went into "auto pilot" mode. I've come to terms with my fate and I just try to live in the moment and not let it consume me.
Not trying to be "gloom and doom" but I try not to dwell on it anymore and have put it in God's hands. I hope to be around for several more years but if things don't work out, I'll put in a good word for you with the big guy!
In your moments of weakness, all you need to do to is hold the hand of your "minne me" and you will find your strength! You've got this bro!!!!!