You'll have those feelings like you might have been just as well off before. I went with my GI doctor's advice and rolled with it. Sadly, I did no research before surgery and my post-op literature was piss poor. Needless to say, I've had literally a thousand questions for four doctors, my GP, my surgeon, and two GI's.
My dad was sick and my mom couldn't really handle my stuff, too. I just picked a very poor time to go through with it. I try to tell myself some good things. I got off blood pressure meds, lost weight, and I clear my throat much less now. For a while there, I was like my old self and it was nice. I'm still very guarded with what I do from a physical standpoint. Since then, there's been some regression. I think the wrap might still be okay, but something is going on with my stomach. I say I think the wrap might be ok with no confidence. Last couple days the heartburn has come.
I've taken Tramadol before for something or another, but I don't think it was for this. Definitely discuss your feared dependency with the doctor. However, it's certainly understandable to be a little overzealous with something that makes you feel better after you feel so bad. I'm hitting my Xanax a little harder than normal, but nothing crazy.
I think MOST people would be feeling a lot better at this point since yours was done in November. I'm told it can take up to a year to really get there. I know it's frustrating, but everyone is different. My second GI doc says it's not really normal for me to still be this bad off this far out, but it's not unheard of, either. It's been pretty much unanimous that the stress has gotten to me. Lost my dog in August, had my surgery in August, lost my dad in September, dealing with stuff after his death (mom did most of that), but I still think much bothers me subconsciously. I obsessed about myself to maybe protect myself from what my dad was going through. I don't know.
Seven years is a long time. I dealt with mine officially two to three I guess. When it all began, I was pretty heavy and thought I was having a heart issue. Then GI Doctor #1 discovered the hernia, the stage 4 esophigitis, the GERD, and later the Barrett's.
From what I can tell, most stomach stuff is pretty manageable. We just have to be able to tackle what's going on and getting to that point is maybe the toughest part.
I told GI Doctor #2 I'm sure this would kill me and if it didn't, I'd probably want to die. He refuted that statement. Like I said, idk how he can be so sure. But, he is the doctor. Maybe he knows more than me.