What's up, guys?
I just need to vent a bit. I don't want to monopolize anymore of Tony or Bill's time.
I find myself wondering if I'll ever have a 'normal' life again. We're 11 months out post-Nissen. I know I sound like a broken record, but talking helps.
I wonder if I'll have sex again. As of right now, I feel like all the movement that can go on in the stomach would be bad for me even though I've been cleared to resume any activity. A couple of months back, a girl I was dating was just kind of on top of me (we weren't doing THAT) and it was a bit uncomfortable.
Lifting is still a worry. Since my dad passed, I need to step it up and help my mom.
There are times where I feel like my old self and then regression happens. I just hope that stops eventually.
During my surgery, I did have a small diaphragm tear that was repaired with mesh. I know that hindered my healing. I didn't rest like I should have early on. I didn't eat enough in the beginning. I suppose a lot of this can be blamed on yours truly.
I have an appointment on the 18th and hope to have a stool culture done, too. I tried reviewing my barium swallow on CD (which came back fine), but idk what I'm looking at.
Xanax usually fixes my discomfort and I'm relying on dicylcomine more lately. I take Pepcid 2-3 times a day. Most of my meds are liquid as I can't swallow pills for some reasdon. I'm more medicated now than I was pre-surgery.
Thanks for just listening, reading, whatever...