First of all, I am sorry for bringing my worries onto this forum. I know that is kind of what these forums are for, but still....I feel bad.
I'm 32 years old, I have suffered from GERD for about
five years. I have taken various medications with little to no success. I am obese, I am 6'0" and weigh 319 pounds. I am a light smoker, have been for three years and I have tried quitting smoking on multiple occasions but because of my severe anxiety it's really difficult. I know that these are issues caused by my own poor decisions, but I wanted to tell the whole story.
My GERD fluctuates on severity, sometimes I have really bad attacks that a week, others I am okay for a short period of time. I always have the burping and the feeling and sound of acid sizzling in the back of my throat. As of late (last few months) I have been getting pain in my rib area on both sides of my body and this feeling of a bump in the back of my throat. The bump feeling goes away slightly whenever I burp. These symptoms can come on anytime, but typically come on after I eat. I get the tightness in my chest at times too, as well as aches in my shoulders, arms, neck and the back of my head. I know that there are people who have worse cases of acid reflux, mine though it has annoying symptoms isn't really rehabilitating. But I haven't really been able to get the symptoms under control and now I am scared as heck.
I came across this article on Facebook, I thought it was about
sleep apnea and since I have sleep apnea as well, I thought I would head it. Somehow it ended up being about
esophageal cancer and GERD. So one thing led to another and I began searching on google for articles that could allow me to be at ease. But as I read different articles, I just got more worried and more worried. I haven't been able to get an endoscopy as of yet because I am really afraid of needles and my doctor insists that I get an IV and be put out for the procedure. Now I am worried that all this time over the past five years I may have developed esophageal cancer and not even known it. I thought at first that it was something that almost always happened in people over 50, but then I get to this page online with all these people talking about
how their 31 year old husband and 24 year old husband and whatnot died from esophageal cancer. Now, I am just really, really scared.
I am five classes away from becoming the second person ever in my family to earn a bachelor's degree, I am finally going to be able to make a good life for my wife and I and now I feel like I am going to die before I ever get the chance.
I would appreciate any advice because i'm really driving myself mad. It scares me so much that I fall into so many of the risk pools for esophageal cancer. I plan to rectify these things, but I am so scared that I already have it and won't have a chance to.