Hi 1 day,
It is extremely frustrating and annoying when others are going about their lives without breathing/allergy issues and you're feeling "sick" and can't breathe. Believe me, I can identify. I'm having a lung issue as we speak, and allergies often make it impossible for me to go outside and enjoy my life. I prefer hiking to the gym, but I find myself on the treadmill, rather than out in the woods when pollen counts spike, which is most of the summer.
Try to accept the fact that you need the maintenance/inhaled steroid, and know that in the long run, it will get you back to your old self. It won't be overnight, but gradually your lung inflammation will decrease and you won't need your rescue inhaler in the same way. You will still need to take your ProAir inhaler before you exercise, and for a while I'm sure you'll find you're not up to speed.
Try to give yourself permission to take it a little easier a the gym--know it's not forever. Your lungs WILL improve. You'll most likely always need to take your steroid maintenance inhaler, but I will be a small price to pay for being able to go all out at the gym.
Have you been worked up for allergies? The ragweed and weed/grass pollen is quite high now. It may have been the thing that put your inflammation over the edge. My doctor described it like this...picture a glass half full of water. Each time you're exposed to an irritant the glass gets fuller, until it eventually overflows. When it overflows...that's the metaphor for when your lungs can't take it any more. There's a threshold of inflammation over which you don't want to go. That'll be hospital time. Take it from me...I've been there.
Listen to your doctor, follow the inhaler regime you've been given. If you don't improve in a few weeks, give him/her a call and let them know that you're still struggling. Know that asthma is a life-threatening condition. People can die of asthma, and do.
Follow up and let your doc know how you're doing and by all means, take the medication that will reduce the inflammation that causes your problems. ProAir just opens the lungs up, but doesn't treat the cause. And as you can see, your asthma can get bad enough that a rescue inhaler doesn't work any more. If you're breathing gets really bad, get yourself to an emergency department.
I'm not trying to scare you...just letting you know the truth about uncontrolled asthma. Yours sounds pretty acute right now, so take care of it.
Your lungs will heal! Hang in there!