Posted 7/29/2005 5:56 AM (GMT -8)
I just went to the doctor last Monday and he gave me the nasal spray Budecort,a capsule named Cloxacillin and a small tablet I cannot figure out the name, he told me to return after 10 days which I don't have plan of doing, I just spent 1,600 pesos for that one time visit. I admit my depression is like getting worse, since I was 13 I already have this feeling of constant sadness, crying almost every night and just feel like I will never be happy for the rest of my life. Last year I suddenly feel good about myself, I started going out with my friends and having fun, I join family reunions and do stuff that I normally would not do. I even thought of going back to college, which is my biggest frustration, but suddenly it all ends when my rhinitis came. I just feel like, God won't allow me to be happy, I'm already feeling good maybe not that great but at least I was gaining confidence but then suddenly something bad happen to me, it really sucks! I know I sound lame, shallow and stupid about feeling depress because of my rhinitis and I wish I am not, I wish I am not this crazy, stupid or whatever...Thanks a lot for listening to a complete stranger like me, I truly appreciate it....