I know those feelings well - and yes, towards the end of my quitting after all those many years, I was down to a pack a day and smoking only outdoors! When it got too cold, I was even in the garage - I think that's when I finally realized (even tho I'd already had a heart attack) how addicting this habit was and I decided no drug, unless life saving!, was going to control me. lol
That's when I quit with help with medication and patches.
I wish you only the best, Lyn!! So does your family. :)
Bunches of Hugs, Teri
PS We only got wind from that storm and mild at that - no rain. Thank you for all your kind thoughts!!