Isn't it a blessing to see the "light" in his eyes when he can be a littler clearer sometimes? We noticed with Dad that we could tell when we looked at his eyes if he was "in there".
Oh yes . . . living through the depression would color things for sure. Maybe he is saving his last bit of food for a next meal. Hmmmmmm. Its a thought.
Your rituals don't sound at all strange. We make bread pudding . . . Yum!! I also love to make Pumpkin Pie Filling with half the sugar and bake it in custard cups. No crust. It doesn't feel so guilty and I still get to enjoy the wonderful pumpkin custard.
Your milk and chocolate does sound yummy. I might have to try that. I've taken to buying some 70% chocolate . . .which comes in tiny bars. They really satisfy that chocolate craving we get sometimes.
I'm drinking my coffee right now!! So we have lots in common.
I found some really fun things to do with dad when I realized that he I could still connect to HIS passions. He spent a lot of time driving (policeman, race car, ambulance, driving cross country) and I found that even when he was pretty far gone that he could identify the places where he has been on a world map!!! He could show me where he was born (Detroit) and then he'd drag his finger up to Canada where he grew up and then he'd trace back down to Cleveland where he raised his family. He also showed me the many places he served in the military. Now . . . if I didn't know the background, I wouldn't have realized what he was doing . . . because he couldn't tell me . . . but you could see that he enjoyed tracing the map with his finger.
One day I was paging through a book of ships. He got all excited and stopped at one page. And tried to explain about
that ship. When mom returned home, I showed her . . . and she said that they had "kept ship" for about
a year and it was on THAT ship!!! Turns out that I was conceived on that very ship!!
I hope that you find a real peace with all that is happening. It is really the only way to remain sane when we are faced with the rigors of dealing with this dd.
I sure found help here. . . . and I think of all the info I gathered . . . the attitude was the most important part. . . LOL and the only piece that I had much control over.
I only cared for Dad about
3 days a week for a few hours at a time . . . so I can't imagine doing it full time 24/7 . . . You are a REALLY special person, Tyno!!!
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