Lynnie, I'm so sorry for your loss. You sound so down. Have you ever tried grief counceling? I think it may help you...many hospitals offer group seesions and sometimes churches offer it as a service.
You might even want to check out the depression forum here.
I stopped by this forum to check out info because of my mother-in-law. I just happened onto your post and could not ignore it.
I post on the fibromyalgia forum here.
Lynnie please get some help for yourself. Losing people we love is very difficult. I wish you the very best and I will put you in my prayers.
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