Two updates ..........
#1) to SmurfyShadow ...
In the past two to three weeks, I did get a second opinion on Provenge from a specialist who works with that tretment often. His feelings were that Provenge would probably not do me any good ... and he was surprised how well I reacted to 30-months of the taxotere (chemo) in 2012/2013 - and that my recent bonescan showed very little difference from the last bonescan in October 2011 ... which is GOOD!
As a result of the second opinion, I decided not to proceed with the Provenge. I am getting sick of foreign objects being put into my body. The Provenge would have required at least one (maybe two) catheters put into my chest for major blood draws ... and I already have a port in my chest for the chemo injections. So, as of this Friday, I will start a different type of chemo. Hopefully, this one will give me some additional hope for a future.
#2) about Mom ...
I was over to see her last Saturday along with my daughter, and then an old friend of hers came too. It was Mom's birthday. When I think back of the year she has been in this Assisted Living Home, she really has gotten noticeably less receptive to the things going on around her.
She is now, completely confined to a wheelchair when wanting to move. The walker doesn't work anymore. I notice that simple things like eating, are getting harder for her. That is, she drops food quite a bit and doesn't realize it.
My daughter has had a recent job offer from an old boss of hers - although it wouldn't start until next March. But ... if she takes it, I don't know what I would do. My cancer is terminal. My Mother may outlive me, and if I'm gone, who is going to take care of the most rudimentory things for Mom?
This may not become a factor ...... but, if it does ....... there's a problem coming down the road. Who handles Mom's money? Who pays the bills? Who makes the decisions when they're needed? And - who goes to see Mom? Mom's two closest next door neighbors (from where she used to live) have not visited her once yet. I don't expect they ever will. And yet, Mom, in her dementia state, still thinks these are two of the best people in the world.
Actually, her old next door neighbor hasn't even called me once to find out how Mom is doing! What is wrong with people? Did they get what they wanted from her when she was living at home with dementia? And now ...... bye!!!!! Oh yes, and all of her jewelry was gone when we went thru her house this past Summer preparing it for sale. A coincidence?
Sorry .... just in kind of a bad state of mind right now .... and sorry to see my Mother close to that of a living vegetable. Hey .... she was 96 on Saturday. But ... what's that about a qulity life?
Hope everyone's experiences are a little better ............!!!