I have not been on this forum for quite some time. It appears to be more active now than it was in the past and that is a good thing. I hope members are able to lean on each other and support one another.
My mom passed away October 1, 2014. She was diagnosed with probable Alzheimer's 11 years' ago. It has been a very long journey. I feel as if I lost her many years' ago and every time she declined, I lost a little more of her. Her passing was actually a blessing, as horrible as that may sound. She was 92 years' old and was diagnosed with two forms of terminal cancer five months' ago. I am very grateful that she did not go to end stage, she was at the beginning of end stage. She still recognized me and my sisters, although there were times when she did not, but they were momentary. She was sweet and loving until about three days' before she died, and then she didn't want anyone near her, including her daughters. She lived on a special memory care floor of a nursing home. I had hospice come in one week before she died and they were wonderful. I truly believe that being the person she was, so strong willed, she decided when it was time. Everyone was shocked over her death, including the staff and hospice nurse. Yes, she was declining, but no one thought she would go so fast. I believe she made up her mind and within two days she simply got into bed and stayed there. The day she died, she was in a deep sleep throughout the day, a very peaceful sleep, breathing evenly. I had spent the night with her the night before; I had been going every day for weeks. That night, I was right by her side, holding her hand, watching her sleep, listening to her breathe and she just stopped breathing. Of course I miss her and I grieve her and feel a tremendous loss, but I cannot tell you how grateful I am that I was able to be there with her, to see how peaceful she passed.
I wish all of you good health and peace.