I'm glad you have posted again, as we are here to help you. I'm sure you have gotten some good advice on the GERD board as well.
As all of us here know that anxiety is a REAL condition. As Lyn said earilier, many of us deal with health anxieties and I think you may be dealing with that. You have a real condition with the GERD/acid reflux. But the chances of developing cancer are very slim, I know said it before but I know what the statistics are but I still worry from time to time about developing cancer. Since I do have ulcers in my esophagus I have to be scoped about once a year to make sure nothing has changed. My doctors have made it very clear to me that as long as I stay on the medication for the rest of my llife and my chances of developing cancer are very small.
It's difficult to get these thoughts out of your head, but maybe you could try some of the relaxtion techniques that are posted. You could also try CBT - this is a technique that teaches you to change the way you think and teaches you to think better thoughts.
I can only imagine what it's like to have two small babies when you're 40. I'm only a couple of years older than you but my two kids youngest kids are teenagers (and there are many times I'm ready to pull my hair out). I can't even begin to imagin starting over with kids at my age. But I believe that you are strong, you have to be strong for your children, and you will see your children grow up. I know that you can overcome these fears, but you will have to work at it and it will take time. This will not be an overnight change. I honestly dont think you are having these thoughts because you have too much time on your hands. With two young babies, I don't think you have much extra time for anything else. I just think you are worried about your health. I hope you can get to see a therapist who can hel you with these issues. Remember, you have to do what you think is right for you and your family.
Please keep posting and we will do our best to help you.
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