I'm glad that you have come back to HW to post again and seek help. You already know what a great place this is to be.
I'm in the same position as you are. I went from being active, going anywhere at any time, to being at home and afraid to leave. During the last 5 years I have had a great deal of trouble with my youngest son who is now 15. After much treatment he is doing much better. But the docs have told me that since I had to keep it together during that time in order for my son to get better, I can now "breathe" and now I have broken down from all the stress I had to deal with. This makes sense to me now, but it didn't a few months ago.
I am still not able to leave home for too long before I start freaking out - in fact I don't do any errands or go to friends homes. On Christmas Eve, I went to my son's house for dinner; his house is only a mile away from mine. I was able to stay for about 2.5 hours before I had to leave. That's the longest I have been anywhere for six months. I do go to a therapist almost every week - but this is even difficult for me to do...I know I have to go in order to get better.
In order for you to get better you really need to try going to a therapist. Believe me, I know just how difficult that will be for you. You may have to do "trial runs" and drive (or have your husband drive) a little further each time until you are able to get as far as where your therapist's office is. To get through this will take baby steps and patience with yourself. Patience, Patience, Patience.
The other thing you have to do is NOT beat yourself up for this - right now this is beyond your control and you must be nice to yourself. Each time you are able to leave your home acknowledge that success and give yourself the credit you deserve for doing that. Then each time you are able to go a little bit further acknowledge that too and take that credit by giving yourself a pat on the back. These are baby steps, but that's exactly what it's going to take to get through this. I know how hard it is to leave that comfort zone but it has to be done a little at a time. Please remember that and don't beat yourself up if you slide backwards - it may happen and just tell yourself that next time you go out you will do your best at getting a little further ahead.
I hope this has helped you. Please keep posting to let us know how you are doing. You know we will try to help as much as we can.
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