Hey there, good morning. I remember you. This is Kitt. You asked the infamous question, why you and why all of a sudden................I am sorry but the answer to that question is Why Not You? I learned that in therapy as I kept looking for the answer to why me, I had always been outgoing and never afraid to leave home, now I would cry at the thought of leaving home.
I spent a lot of time in therapy...........and I do take an AD which has helped but I understand that meds are not for everyone. It is a personal choice.
This is the route I used and finally I have no fears of leaving home but I sometimes set a time limit on how long I have to attend a gathering. Or I give myself permission to leave if I start to fell the anxiety.
Systematic desensitization involves reducing your sensitivity to certain stimuli in a given anxiety-producing situation in very small, controlled steps. This is done by exposing yourself to the situation a little bit at a time.
I started with giving myself plenty of time to get ready to go and I set short attainable goals..........15 minutes at Target. I had a hard time getting into the car and driving the 7 miles to town but I made it.
Yes I would break into tears of frustration when I got home as this was so Not me.
Through therapy I learned to stop beating myself up. I gave myself permission to change my mind or ask my husband to go with me. Then he could drive and it was like having a get away driver if I needed a quick escape back to my safe house.
I hope this gives you some idea of where to start. I am so glad to hear your weight is up in a better range for you. That is proof that you are doing better and you will make it. Be kind to yourself.