I also wanted to say that Lyn is so right about this issue. It's tough starting out the day on a sour note and I try to do the same as Lyn on a daily basis. It doesn't always work, but I do try.
I have to say that I think your aunt made an excellent point and I have gotten the same feeling from you that really do want this opportunity. No matter what happens - if you decide at any point not to be in CA then that's the right decision for you at the right time. But I do hope you give it a try because as your aunt said, I really do think you want this.
Good luck to you and let us know what you plan to do as well as how you are doing.
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