Thank you all for your willingness to help and for the great support. You all mean so much to me and that's why I know I can come here to tell you what's going on and I won't be judged in any way. I don't know how else to repay you for that except for saying thank you.
My husband was able to find work for today, but only for today. His old boss called him to see if he would be willing to help out for the day. It's weird that the boss that he was fighting with (not physically), asked him to help out by working there for the day. But I'm not going to question it because every little bit of money he earns will help at this point. My husband is a hard working man and always has been. It's killing him inside that he isn't working and providing for his family.
I know how much he loves me, really I do. But why on earth would he want to do this to us - no work means no money and he knows that. I love him dearly and would never think badly of him, but I just wish he had thought this through and talked with me about this before he did it. I would have tried to convince him that all my doc appts. can be scheduled for late afternoon after he gets out of work, so he wouldn't have had to miss any time at work.
Tammy, yes I'm able to take generics for the ones that have generics. But unfortunately only a few that I take have generics. I live in New Hampshire and I will have to check out other places to see if anyone else has programs like Walmart - we do have a Walmart near us, so getting there won't be a problem for my husband. I just wasn't sure if Walmart's program was only for those who have insurance so they could bill the reset of the amount to the insurance companies. But I'm glad to hear that it's for everyone. Thanks for that info Tammy.
Kitt, I will check out those two links you gave me. It's gotten so that every time I eat or drink anything, but especially when I eat, my stomach hurts enough to make me double over in pain and then the IBS kicks into high gear. I don't eat, I become malnourished or I do eat and I end up in pain. I just can't win! I will also try very hard to let go of this guilt, but it's not easy. Knowing that I was part of the reason he left his job is a hard thing for me to accept. We will have to go to the food pantries because we aren't going to have a choice - but he's a proud man and gets very upset with me when I mention any program that may be able to help us. I can make all kinds of phone calls to these programs and do as many applications on line as I can, but for some things one of us will have to go to these places. But because of the agoraphobia, it's extremely hard for me to do that. I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.
Mynameis, thank you for your kind words and yes we all need to vent at times and I just needed to do that. This really is a very difficult situation and since I can't work it makes me feel even worse because I can't help. All I can do is apply for programs and hope we can get some assistance.
Any thoughts that anyone has is more than welcomed and thank you all again for your help and support.
Love and hugs,
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Dx: Agoraphobia, Anxiety/Panic Disorders, Barrett's Esophagus, Bipolar Disorder, Depression, Fibromyalgia, I.B.S., Mitral Valve Prolapse, Narcolepsy, PTSD, Restless Leg Syndrome, Severe Acid Reflux, Sleep Apnea, Social Anxiety
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