Need a Hug (((((((((((((((Blue))))))))))))))). I am so sorry this has happened to you. I know how devestated you feel and how much you did not need this with your Crohn's and anxiety problems.
You reacted pretty normal as most people I know would be really down and feel depressed too. It is a blow to your esteem as well as feeling like you have been targeted because you have an illness. I am glad you went home and talked to your roomie.
Kudos to you for getting the resume updated. No grass grows under you feet............We are here for you and feel free to vent away, ask for advice or what ever else may help you.