In time you will find that humourous you really .....the SOBER one the one that is really LAUGHING out loud sober and honestly....I told you in my sobriety story I was the LIFE of the party ya okay ppl taked about
the "things " Lyn did and oh wasnt that just hilarious ...no actually in hindsight it was pretty silly and reckless.I count everyday as a blessing that I am still here and able to say I am sober I went one more day .........
YOU are funny and you are comforting to so many on here
I would not worry about
what the babe will or wont have this is not 100% hereditary ya know
Like I said Cait gets her OCD and anxiety from environment and seeing Mom not from what meds I took while preggars......
I like how Kitt put about
being the only sober one at a drunken party now that is something I can really relate too lol I sure nuff do not like Drunks and I cannot tolerate how they act most times I think to self OMG was I like that ..........did I look like a total *** like this person.....you know what I mean
I have never been so proud of a person in my life other than my Cait ...I thought you were on the crossroads and didnt know which road to take for a time there
When I finally found out that you were no longer drinking I cried ....LITERALLY......you have NO idea how great I felt for you
You are needed for so many wonderful things to come in your life....the babes first kick first smile.....first tooth ( oh vay)...and first step so many beautiful and just crazy moments you are coming up too
Me.. I look at my Cait she is a beautiful young woman with a mind of her own ( despises alcohol) and has her mind already made up on what and where she will be in 5 and 10 yrs she has a plan and ya know I have to take ownership in her being this way being so brilliant .lol.....Really all moms and dads that are involved DO.......as parents we mold them and guide them ..leaving them room for error .catching them when they fall and kissing their boo boos .as they age especially with me and Cait I find I am reliving part of my teens remembering my first and only love ...first kiss and I want so badly to protect her BUT I know I have instilled the proper morals in her and she has seen a SOBER mom all her life so she knows me as no different and she has seen me laughing my arse off almost in tears .......over something she has said or we have done ....when we have baked together and we are throwing flour at one another those moments I CHERISH ( the OCD doesnt lol) but I do......and I cherish them more because I am NOT numbed by alcohol.it is the real raw and all me that is involved and I love it so will you
The babe will also bring out your sense of HAHA they do some funny chit I tell ya ........
I am going thru the preggars with ya I think I cannot eat enough Caramel sundeas.4 to 6 a day and I am now 118 lbs and feel like a ton.lol I was only 114 at 7 mths with Cait in my belly
Now I share her jeans and she wears mine .......
My biggest wish for you is for you to make sure you have PEACE within you and around you for you first and for the babe and dad next .........
Life is nothing if there is no Happiness and Peace........
Luvs ya my Twiggy...........always have had faith in you ............glad you finally found that you did TOO...Luvs
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Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 1/9/2008 6:28:22 AM (GMT-7)