hello everyone. I am not new but I havent been on here for so long I forgot I had already joined and tried to sign up again.
I wont get into too much because I have every symptom and problem that I know of in 3 years since the birth of my son.
1 year after he was born I spent many days in ER because I had dizziness, nothing came out of it and it just progressed to feeling so weak like I am 80 years old, then I started getting weird sensations and would cry and freak out. Burning rushes through my body like I was going to pass out or puke, dizziness, extremely weak, short of breath, etc etc.........
It has been 3 years and during that time I had another baby through all this and was anemic during my pregnancy and have a thyroid condition but they say it is under control and I am just extremely anxious and conscious of all bodily sensations.
My whole life has turned upside down, having a child and marriage was something I dreamed of but now I am so ill I have not been able to enjoy any of it. I dont go out often, I dont get up and shower in the morning until I "feel okay", I am scared to exercise as I might pass out? So I think. I am not very energetic and my whole life now is me waking up and wondering what symptom may happen next.
I went to the doctor today for 4 days of not being able to breath in very well and he said my chest is all clear so he gave me Ventolin inhaler and said when I get stressed or have a panic attack to take it, Has anybody heard of this I always thought it was for asthma which I dont have.
Anyway I have so much I can ramble on about but I just want to be a good wife and mother and stop my worrying. I dont do anything until I feel okay and i look at people who are so energetic and dont think about their health and I am so jealous I just want to cry and scream because I never thought once I had a baby I would turn into this person I dont recognize and wife my husband doesnt know anymore.
Thanks for listening. Please reply if you want.