Tired of living with panic and anxiety.

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Date Joined Jan 2008
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   Posted 1/11/2008 12:46 AM (GMT -6)   
I just joined this site today in hopes of finding some comfort or help in dealing with my anxiety.
I started having panic attacks about a year and a half ago, I think my first attack started because I was worried that I could be allergic to a food I had eaten, it was an odd worry because in the 18 years that I've been alive I have never had an allergic reaction to any type of food.  When this first attack happened I had all of the "normal" symptoms (I had no idea at the time that these were something I would have to deal with for a long time) my chest hurt, my heart was pounding, I felt like I was choking and I couldn't breathe, I thought I was going to have a heart attack or pass out, my left hand and arm was numb.  Anyone who has ever had a panic attack knows exactly what I mean, and my deepest sympathy goes out to anyone who can understand or relate in any way.
Well, it's been a year and a half since that first horrible panic attack and I'm still having them. In the beginning I had lots of tests ran, EKG, Thyroid, a test to see if I was anemic, I even had to go to the emergency room on several occassions because I thought I was going to die...after all of these tests the final conclusion was that my heart and everything was basically as normal as it could be, my only problem, ANXIETY. I have refused to take any medication. I don't take medications and I prefer to avoid putting anything unnecessary in my body. I've been to a therapist and I thought the problem was gone so I've stopped going to see him, only here lately, the problem seems to be back.
Panic and anxiety has been nothing but a huge pain for the past year, it ruined my senior year of highschool, and has made it hard for me to feel completely comfortable with a job, I had to miss a lot of school in highschool and college both because of my anxiety and it's pretty much impossible to lead a normal life when you try to avoid situations that you know will cause anxiety. I avoid long check-out lines, I can't really go to the movie theater, long car rides cause panic attacks.
I just want some help from someone who understands, it's hard to have family and friends who think I'm just be dramatic. All I need is some understanding.

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Date Joined Dec 2007
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   Posted 1/11/2008 1:29 AM (GMT -6)   
I am so sorry you are going through this. I have suffered with the same thing so bad in the past that I felt I couldn't breath and slowly, after only a little while on Zoloft (if you don't know about it- look it up on internet theres heaps of info) I feel better for the first time in yearts. It gives your braion a holiday from all that anxiety. I KNOW it makes you feel a little wacky but from my personal opinion and experience, I'd rather THAT than the horrible panic I was feeling (usually socially).
Has this helped? Other than continuing with your GP to try and find the meds that work for you, Psychotherapy is the only thing- you CAN"T give up now, keep trying and you will find the answer.
Good luck honey.
remember- no one else is seeing and thinking what you are. They are just hanging around thinking about them selves. try and do the same.

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   Posted 1/11/2008 10:50 AM (GMT -6)   

Good Morning crwdrkla,

First off, welcome to Healing Well, I hope you find that this is a wonderful place to come to for support, help, caring and compassion.

Like deepakk, I too have suffered from panic attacks for a long time.  They can be very debilitating because we do not want to encounter what makes us panicky.  Being on meds and/or seeing a therapist does not mean anything except that you are getting the help that you need.  Iknow how you feel about taking meds, I don't like doing it either, but I know that I need to do this - it's part of getting better.  There's a thread that I just brought up to the top regarding CBT.  THis is a type of therapy that changes your negative thinking to positive thoughts.  It works for some and not for others, but many people here use it, including myself.  In that thread is a link for you to go to a free online CBT course.  Maybe this will help you to get the panic under control.  But I really do think you should consider therapy and/or meds - it really does help.

Please keep posting so we know how you are doing and we can continue to support you.  Again, a warm welcome to you from all at Healing Well.



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   Posted 1/11/2008 6:08 PM (GMT -6)   

Welcome to HW, To say that panic attacks are horrible would be an understatement, but you are in the right place to get some support.  Isn't it really annoying to have all those tests and hope there is a "fixable" problem only to discover it's all in your head.  How I wished for a thyroid problem!!

It's great you are getting therapy, and I'm echoing Wen here but sometimes you do need meds initially to re-balance.  I'm not advocating, but it can be a short term thing that gets you back on track.  Like diabetics take insulin,sometimes P/a sufferers need to take anti-deps or anti-anxiety meds...it's really up to you and your doc, but please don't discount it alltogether. 

I started having panic attacks when I was in my final year of high school and it ruined soooo much.  I really understand how bad that feels, on the upside 10 years on (yes I'm a dinosaur) LIFE IS 100° better than it used to be and, yes, it does get easier.  xxnm
I alone can do this, but I cannot do it alone. 

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   Posted 1/11/2008 6:13 PM (GMT -6)   
HI and Welcome to HW
All great support and input already I just wanted to add that along with or IF you are deadset against meds altogether for NOW try Cognitive behavioural Therapy.....A way to change your thinking pattens and find a way to deal with the a/p
I know you will find a lot of great ppl here and the support is fantastic so plz do stay with us as Wen said and continue to post

Best to you
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Date Joined Jan 2008
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   Posted 1/12/2008 2:39 PM (GMT -6)   
I understand exactly. I first had my horrible panic attack at age 15 on a crowded bus and it was bad.
I'm 19 now and have been on xanax since I was 17 years old and I finally got my life back. (I'm sorry to here your senior year was bad; because I was medicated I had one of the best years in high school (I could finally be myself, again, I felt.)
And I also understand how you feel about them coming back, mine seem to go away and then pop up out of no where, again. I had to quite jobs before I was on xanax because I would panic if there were a lot of people in my line, etc.
To help you non medically (which I had been trying recently) I would look up semi hypnotic exercises (these work better than breathing exercises which I feel are total bs) and they relax you more or pretend in your mind that you are in a calm place (this will just calm you down, not exactly make them go away or not come on.)
I have yet to find something to completely make them not come on, I used to get them when I wasn't even worried or thinking about anything. BUT, TAKING WALKS EVERY DAY OR NIGHT FOR about 15 MINUTES CAN REALLY HELP.
I have noticed that stressful events make them worse though and come on more often.

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   Posted 1/12/2008 3:08 PM (GMT -6)   

Welcome to Healing Well and the A & P Forum.  I see you have met many of our wonderful members and have received some great advice.

Please continue to post and you will find that this is a great place to find people who know where your coming from and what your going through.

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