I just joined this site today in hopes of finding some comfort or help in dealing with my anxiety.
I started having panic attacks about a year and a half ago, I think my first attack started because I was worried that I could be allergic to a food I had eaten, it was an odd worry because in the 18 years that I've been alive I have never had an allergic reaction to any type of food. When this first attack happened I had all of the "normal" symptoms (I had no idea at the time that these were something I would have to deal with for a long time) my chest hurt, my heart was pounding, I felt like I was choking and I couldn't breathe, I thought I was going to have a heart attack or pass out, my left hand and arm was numb. Anyone who has ever had a panic attack knows exactly what I mean, and my deepest sympathy goes out to anyone who can understand or relate in any way.
Well, it's been a year and a half since that first horrible panic attack and I'm still having them. In the beginning I had lots of tests ran, EKG, Thyroid, a test to see if I was anemic, I even had to go to the emergency room on several occassions because I thought I was going to die...after all of these tests the final conclusion was that my heart and everything was basically as normal as it could be, my only problem, ANXIETY. I have refused to take any medication. I don't take medications and I prefer to avoid putting anything unnecessary in my body. I've been to a therapist and I thought the problem was gone so I've stopped going to see him, only here lately, the problem seems to be back.
Panic and anxiety has been nothing but a huge pain for the past year, it ruined my senior year of highschool, and has made it hard for me to feel completely comfortable with a job, I had to miss a lot of school in highschool and college both because of my anxiety and it's pretty much impossible to lead a normal life when you try to avoid situations that you know will cause anxiety. I avoid long check-out lines, I can't really go to the movie theater, long car rides cause panic attacks.
I just want some help from someone who understands, it's hard to have family and friends who think I'm just be dramatic. All I need is some understanding.