Hey, I am so very sorry to hear about your losssweetie. It's extra hard when it's sudden. I'm going through a similar grief process at the moment and I find it hard to breath and sleep and forget food. I am getting as much rest as I can and taking xanax and ativan to get me through the day and night. This is not a time to let your doctor tell you to "get through it alone" if you suffer from panic/anxiety. It just freaking crushing and I have to keep squeezing my face shut to stop crying...again.
My deep sympathies to you again. It's going to take time and please get all the help you can get. Sometimes these awful, awful things make us stronger in the long run (I really hope that didn't sound trite). I just hope we can give you some support here. keep posting and let us know how things go xxx
I alone can do this, but I cannot do it alone.