I have re read all your posts on this thread Lalala and I must say it does sound like you have a real straight forward hard core case of anxiety and panic
It is a HORRID way to live hun BUT with selkf help support and techniques you can do it we will all be with you and of course your meds....you mention you had not taken your valium,well I would in your position continue to take it if it helps and it seemed too with the other med ..
You have found your trigger in your Mom's illness well at least one( sorry about
your mom sweety)
Look for others around you or write down things that may be triggering these things you are going thru
I have had those periode
s of sheer doom and fear so bad I did hide under blankets for long periods of times BUT we cannot continue to let this DD beat us down all the time it needs a good butt kicking too IMHO
Small steps baby steps any steps will get you there I can tell you that for sure ........
Anticipatory anxiety is another type that can be crippling for many........
You are not going crazy this is what you are really feeling BUT you need to get to the roots of why and what for .........and FIGHT this beast known to so many ...despised by all
YOU can also use anxiety for the good of you in some ways IMHO......
Perhaps instead of thinking about
he breathing as you know you are breathing right think of other things you can be doing concentrate not on your breathing but on other stuff and soon you will or should find you are not paying attention to the breaths that you take or feel you cannot take ya know
Am I making sense here.........
So mnay of us feel like this at one point or another yet we are still here .........why self preservation and support ....and friends like Panike and others
Keep on fighting this monster that loves to knock us to our knees and give it what it so deserves we will be right there with you
Keep posting and BELIEVE you can do this we know you can...............Luvs.........LYN
DX With Crohns,Pyoderma Gangrenosum, Anxiety/ Panic and Other Disorders
Mod for Alzheimer's, Anxiety and Panic and Co Mod for Crohns
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