I have been on a benzo for 24 years. A year ago my Pdoc decided they could not be good for me so I agreed to wean off using a slow wean process. I was on Ativan 4 mg per day at the time which converts to = 40 mg of Valium per day and I am now down to 2 mg of Valium per day.
Here is the problem at 2 mg per day the anxiety has crept back in and with it the depression has kicked up . My pdoc wanted me off the Valium but I have decided that is her goal and not going to be mine. So I see her next week and I called her office today to tell them I was not doing well on 2mg of Valium per day. I feel I need at least 4 mg per day and the Rx was called in. I would rather be on the med and be able to function then to be filled with anxiety and panic and then feel depressed every day.
Sometimes you have to look at the pros and cons and in my case, I need the med. After 24 years perhaps I am addicted but I can function on the meds. Off the med I shake and cry and the anxiety is painful.
Gentle hugs to you. Take care of you.